My mother married a Gloucester man, and my sister married a Kilmarnock man. I moved midway between my mother and sister when Joni was five months old. I never thought that I'd stay here as long as I have. I have never lived anywhere that was perfect, but I do find what I need wherever I go. I always meet amazing people, make friends, and find insight and purpose. Gloucester is no exception. I am, however, making small preparations so that I can leave in two years, as soon as Joni goes to college. I don't know where I'll go, though I have a short list and tentative plans. Maybe I won't do it, but I think that it would be good for my emotional health if I do.
There is a difference between getting along and deeply connecting. I'm not sure that I will ever really feel connected to this area. Maybe it's just the grass is greener syndrome, or maybe garden-variety wanderlust, but I don't think so. I have lived in places that felt right. I don't want to get old living somewhere I don't deeply want to be just because I have a "make it work" attitude. Now. I'm going to eat leftover cous cous and go to bed early. Tomorrow I get to pick up Joni from camp!!! I can not wait to see that girl!!!!!! Goodnight.